The last few weeks have been rough for Serenity. She has been fighting off viruses left and right. First she had an eye infection, with goopy eyes that were sealed shut every morning. For that we had to hold her down and administer eye drops (ciprofloxacin). She hated it because the medicine feels like it’s burning her eyes. She has also had this persistent, barking cough for weeks now. In addition to the septra, mercaptopurine, and methotrexate that she takes regularly, her pediatrician put her on a nasal spray medication (fluticasone) and an oral antibiotic (Amoxicillin) to help with the cough. When there was little improvement, the doctor put her on first an inhaler and then a nebulizer (Albuterol). A week later, the doctor sent her for a chest x-ray because she wasn’t improving. The chest x-ray showed some viral inflammation but no pneumonia, which we were thankful for. Our doctor also prescribed prednisolone. (Yea! bonus steroid week!) Just kidding. Steroid week is one we all dread around here. It makes Serenity feel awful and she turns into quite the little monster some days. Then she cries and says, “I hate it when I’m mean to people.”
Several siblings have had the same cough but they are mostly over it.
Serenity seemed to improve for a few days, but now it’s back. We’ve made a third trip to the pediatrician and she has an ear infection now, too, which boggles my mind given the multiple antibiotics she’s been on this month. She is now on a different antibiotic, and has a second nebulizer medication (Budesonide). It breaks my heart to see her propped up in bed with the mask – which she dislikes – over her face, trying to breathe in as much of the medicine as she possibly can. She is tired of being sick, and I wish more than anything that I could do something to help her. The other day she spiked a fever of 102.6 which made us nervous, but Tylenol brought it down and she’s been ok since.
We had a clinic visit about 10 days ago and I mentioned her cough to the nurse practitioner. He thinks she will feel better soon when she is off treatment and not on so many medications. I hope so! She’s had leg pain that comes and goes for months now, and I thought again about pressing for a bone scan to rule out AVN. Since she has only a few weeks left of treatment I decided to hold off and see what happens when she goes off the steroids and chemo.
Next month! I can hardly believe it. In the beginning I couldn’t imagine life this far down the road. Serenity goes back to the clinic next month for her final lumbar puncture and her final dose of intravenous and intrathecal (in her spine) chemotherapy. Then 5 days of steroids and then we finish out the month of July with her daily oral & weekly chemo and she’s done!
I have to say, I am beyond excited for her and also pretty nervous. With ALL, the ideal is for the doctors to achieve remission within a period of days. So when people ask if Serenity is in remission, they’re shocked to hear that she was in remission by day 14. Research has shown that if treatment isn’t maintained for several years, the child is more likely to relapse. We were told that she would be on treatment for approximately 2 1/2 years. (It’s 3 1/2 years for boys.) It is actually calculated to be 2 years from the time she started Interim Maintenance (one of the phases of treatment). So the end of July will be 2 years for us.
I asked the nurse practitioner about Off Treatment follow up. They would still like us to bring her in monthly for a CBC and exam, but it will be in another part of the clinic and “quick in and out”, he said. He asked if I wanted her port to come out at her appointment next month, or wait an extra month “just to see”. I told him I’d like to leave it in for another year! Her port has been such a blessing. Blood draws are quick and painless. He said they won’t leave it in for a year, one month it is. A CBC can be done with just a drop of blood so they will just do a finger poke. I still have reservations getting her port out, because if they needed a line for anything in the future she would have to have an IV, like anyone else. I do understand why they want to remove her port-a-cath. With a central line, there is increased risk for infection, and when she gets a fever, we run her to the hospital for IV antibiotics. With the port gone, we won’t need to do that anymore.
In my heart I believe we have kicked this thing and I am excited for my little girl to get her healthy body back and be a normal kid. At the same time, the idea of *not* giving her chemo every day to keep the beast at bay terrifies me. For the past 2 years she has had chemo nearly every day and multiple doctors have hovered over her, with us chronicling and reporting every symptom, no matter how mild. Now we’re going back into the world of Everybody Else where a fever is just a fever and a cough is just a cough. Except we’re not Everybody Else and maybe never will be. I walk around with an anvil labeled Cancer hanging over my head, wondering when it will drop. Sometimes I forget it’s there, but not often. Maybe in time that will change.
