Tonight I was lying next to Serenity when she put her feet in my face. And the first thing I thought was that I love this girl so much, I even love smelling her stinky feet. There is a nurse at the hospital that, like so many of them, just has a way with children. This particular one is tall, probably in his mid forties, and has long greying hair pulled back into a ponytail. He goes out of his way to talk to Serenity whenever he is on the floor. At first she was intimidated and wouldn’t acknowledge him at all. In an effort to coax her out of shyness, he would ask her if she had stinky feet. Before long she would smile each time he asked and even laugh a little bit. At home whenever her feet are smelly we tell her, “We’re going to tell Irish about your stinky feet!” and she laughs, “No! Don’t tell Irish!” It has become a little game.
She was trying to stay awake so that she could nurse before falling asleep. She had just taken her medicine and so she knew she had to wait an hour before she could eat or drink anything. Every few minutes she would ask to see my watch. Although she can’t tell time she would study my watch intently for a few seconds and then announce, “Not time yet.” I was thinking about how well she (usually) takes everything in stride. She knows there are times she can’t eat because food affects how her medicine is metabolized. For her, daily medicine has become just a part of the routine. Doctor visits, hospital stays, the fact that she can’t do all the things her older siblings can do…it is all part of her life and she accepts it without too much complaint. I am glad, but it is sad to see. And I know that as normal as life is now, we will never again be those people we were before leukemia.
I just wanted to let you know that your family and Serenity are always in my thoughts and prayers, and I am hopeful this will behind you soon
Cathineer
Stinky feet are only cute up to a certain age. LOL Enjoy it while it’s still cute! 😀
I know that I’ve told you this before – but there was, for us, a singular moment when we realized that our life after Megan would never, in any way, resemble our life before Megan. It was not a happy moment, but it was what it was.
I wouldn’t have missed it for the world.
love you.
Yay for sweet girls and stinky feet.
Just wanted to remind you that you all are in our thoughts and prayers, always. It’s hard to know that life will never be the same after cancer. But as much as there are things to absolutely despise, there are wonderful things we learn through it all. Still to this day it’s hard for me to believe that this is my life. You’d think after 3 1/2 years I would have come to terms with it, but I don’t think I ever will. But we get through it day by day. So Is there anything I can do for you guys? I hope this finds you well and happy.
Lots of love and prayers,
~Tara
Hi,
I may not understand what you are going through right now. However, I have witnessed a lot of people having the same worries in the hospital. I work as a nurse and as of the moment I do voluntary jobs. I see kids suffering from leukemia. Although it should be disheartening to see them like that, I feel so proud of them and their family. Having to cope up with such illness is a great fight and having families like yours just make a big difference. It takes much strength to keep up with the illness.
They may be deprived with various activities in life but knowing they have all your love can be more than enough.
I pray your little girl will do fine with the treatment. And she is blessed to have a sweet family like yours.